.butterflies.

‘Cause you,
There is just something ’bout you
Maybe it’s the way you walk girl
But I just could not figure out

Why you give me butterflies when I,
Simply just look at you
Why must I fall for you?
Or why I can’t think of words when I,
Simply approach you
I don’t know what to do

Ms Seductive – Jeff Bernat

.smelly furball.

Guess what I’ve been doing in my free time:

Gifs. Of my cat. I miss him.

Here’s 10 things about my cat (cause I’m in the mood for list)

1. We call him Morty and that’s short for Voldermort.
2. He used to have a sibling cat, named Dumbledore (yeah, we were all about HP then).
3. Dumbledore… escaped through a drain and we never saw him again.
4. Bet Morty was cursing cause he was suppose to follow but he couldn’t get through the drain
5. Anyways,, Morty’s old now. I think about 8 years old
6. He’s never been outside of the house compound
7. A cat once came in the house ‘meow’ing and Morty was like ‘Dude, what ya doin’?
8. Morty likes to do ‘ownership’. Yes. Pee and shit at places
9. But he can really pull a Puss in The Boots huge eyes – so I end up bringing him in the room anyways.
10. Bet he was saying: Sucker!

 

.Wish of the day: Good Sunday for shopping

.so ppl said it was easy.

Ok so I’ve been pretty depressed lately. Pretty bitchy, pretty whiny and pretty pissed. I want to say its the weather but we all know its because there’s only a couple more months to go before finals and I don’t think I can do it without going crazy at last once.

Everyone knows I get panic attacks, right? 

Anyways. This is a whiny post. Its not about trying to find motivation or to be inspired. It’s to whine, whine, whine.

So I’ll say things like it’s getting too cold, like its just my luck and like why can’t the tutor understand my situation.

But I’ll also say that God is Most Merciful and tries to show me the need of making this hard, of hitting just above rock bottom, of getting used to the horrible sinking feeling.

So it’s ok. It will be.

.saturday was wonderful.

Friday:

• Results came out Friday at 2.30pm.
• My patient arrived at 2pm and left at 5.05pm.
• Very, very, very, very, very difficult case btw.
• I opened my result slip (passed, yay!) and checked my phone.
• There were 10 messages. From M, Mel, Amir and my mum.
• Life is good when you have people who care
• Got dressed for xmas dinner – extra soft special mixed grill meat at Sofra
• Detoured to Laduree in Covent Garden – splurged for expensive macaroons. It’s OK, M bought it.
• Went into Somerset House to warm out on my way back
• Night out in London on Friday night: wonderful

Saturday:

• Woke up late. Rushed to MSD
• Emotional breakfast with Mel and Amir – traditional nasi lemak post-result celebratory
• Who I should add, I love.
• Went to Hight Street Kensington (first time in 4 years)
• First shop to spend: Whole Foods. Um. Yes. Food. I bought some weird combination of foods btw including powder wasabi and kale chips
• Kale chips are wonderful! Have you tried it?
• 2 more books bought to fill the bookshelf
• Dinner at Busaba Eathai with M, Emey and Iman. Thai Calamari – crunchy and sweet and warm and just wonderful
• Found out Winter Wonderland was closed due to overcrowding. Huh?
• So ended up at the German Xmas Market at Embankment. Yummy sugary soft doughnuts and newly found chimney cake.

Sunday:

• Woke up late, nothing in the fridge, ate greasy burger and chips, polished off the macaroons and had large chicken tikka briyani for dinner
• I feel bloated, greasy and no good
• I know, I know. My own fault.
• Conclusion: Sunday – not wonderful, meh.

 

But apart from that, here’s to Monday. *grimace

(I have no idea why I underlined all foods)

 

.Wish of the day: Better pillow. Neck is aching.

.and oh, hello December.

No snow in London. I’m ok with that.

.all these reminders.

My library sends reminder emails about the books I borrow and when I should return them. My library lets me renew books online. My phone reminds me about the emails my library sent me.

So how the heck do I end up owing them a good £12 due to late return of books?

.Wish of the day: Need to be a better. Book borrower.

.bulging eyes.

Currently skimming:

1. House
2. Glee
3. Vampire Diaries

Constant replays:

1. Friends
2. Will & Grace
3. That 70′s Show
4. 3rd Rock from The Sun
5. Sex and The City

Started and need to continue but when?
1. Law & Order: SVU
2. Gossip Girl (I suppose?)
3. 30 Rock – Meh. But recommended by my sis
4. How I Met Your Mother – I only like Barney D:
5. Dexter – very low down the list
6. Desperate Housewives – um. I once tried to refuel this, ended up watching an episode about a certain tornado… not good
7. Chuck

I have a feeling there’s more but as I type each letter, I’m thinking ‘wow, I’m really doing nothing until holidays.’
Yikes.

.blast from the.

I have too much free time in my hand.
No wait. Let me get that right. I am wasting too much time by not doing anything.

You know how people go ‘I wish I could go back time to high school or when we were kids, etc’. I never feel that. I don’t want to go back time except to erase some horribly embarrassing memories. Definitely not to experience that feeling of joy and freedom. Because I know, everything is in balance. With joy there is sadness. With freedom there is restriction.

It’s in the past for a reason. Happy memories alone do not mould you. The toughness, the tears, the pain – those made you suspicious and thus, you grow up to make critical choices.

You grow up.

I’m not saying good memories are not important though. But don’t tell me you’re going back just for those.

.Wish of the day: Milk. Cause I’m running out and I’m too lazy to go to the store.

Monday mornings are to be of new beginnings but my patient just cancelled for tomorrow.

So here’s me binging on Glee Season 3.

And guess what I found:

Absolutely. Yes.

.good weekend equals good foods and friends.

This weekend was spent out and about and truth be told – I missed it.

1. Went to Jane Asher‘s shop in South Kensington. Bought a whopping £40 on random cake deco things. Was very happy up until the point I forgot to make a left turn and ended up heading towards Clapham Junction.

2. Planned to have late tea with Iman and Emey at Hummingbird. Arrive said place at 6pm. Found out that it closes at 6pm.

3. Detoured to Patissiere Valerie. Coffee and cakes. Yum.

4. Took the tube to Queensway and had a very oily duck dinner at Oodle Noodle.

5. Ended up in front of London Eye – where the German Xmas Market was happening. Ooh-ed and Aah-ed and headed back home.

6. Woke up very late Sunday morning, only to realise oh hay, time for dinnah!

7. Went to MSD. Good food for £4.50.

8. Finished the night with Starbuck’s Gingerbread Latte and Pecan Cheesecake.

And now, back to reality. Monday.

.Wish of the day: Holidays for the whole month